Andreea B. Ballen: In your inquiry, you reached out to me for a photoshoot because you wanted 'to capture (your) epic new lingerie for posterity'. Tell me a little bit about your love affair (and obsession!) with lingerie.
Ms. S.: “Ah man. Well, I’ve always loved lingerie but lingerie hasn’t always loved me - or should I say I’ve struggled to find lingerie that is pretty, sexy that is in my size. I used to be a 34H at one point!
Anyway, last year at the beginning of the pandemic I found myself marooned on an island with not a lot to do during lockdowns and I worked out a lot. I did yoga most mornings and fell in love with running again once restrictions lifted and we were once again allowed outside to exercise. Having the freedom to run taken away meant that when I had it back, I wanted to do it all the time. Running became my stress reliever, my self-counseling sessions.
After 3 months I’d dropped a bunch of weight and none of my bras fit anymore. It was the first time I’ve really noticed weight change hit my boobs.
I guess the story then begins with my favourite lingerie store - Brooklyn Fox, that started my lingerie obsession:
When I got to Brooklyn, New York, I walked past this little boutique Brooklyn Fox with loads of pretty stuff in the window and noticed they did large cup sizes - and so I went in for a fitting. I had no idea what size I was, just that nothing fit.
I think I measured a 30F and they brought out a bunch of stuff in my size and I was like - wow. I thought, it’s so pretty and dainty it’s never going to fit me - but it did. I was used to my bras looking more like scaffolding - but here were some cute bras in an F cup that looked pretty.
Everything that fit I pretty much bought - and still they kept giving me new stuff to try on. I said I was headed home for the first time in months and they started bringing out the “reunion lingerie” - bras and panties and then some suspenders (garters) and then from there things got a little more risqué - like the ouvert bodysuit which sort of started something - but I put it on and felt hot as hell and bought the lot! I walked out with three bags full of goodies.
When I finally got home and was reunited with my husband and put on one of the bodysuits for our first reunion, the reaction was just as I’d hoped!
From there things (as in, my lingerie collecting) just kind of escalated. I spent a lot of last year by myself, an ocean away from my husband - and lingerie became the feel-good thing I bought to make myself feel good.
I found a stunning corset in a vintage-themed shop in Notting Hill in the UK and vintage silk stockings - and felt so badass and powerful wearing them, I loved it.
Everywhere I went I’d look in lingerie stores or sex shops to see if I could find something fun. I went through a whole corset phase then and bought a few in quick succession.
I then started to get a little more adventurous. I dipped my toe into Latex, as a special request. After another long trip away, I wandered around SoHo from the fanciest boutiques to the seediest stores. Until I found Purple Passion. The team there was amazing. I was totally out of my depth and didn’t really know what I wanted beyond latex for the bedroom - and they helped size me up and suggest some things that could work.
I put on this one outfit that made me look and feel like a freaking superhero - red high neck thing with red arms and black latex stockings - and I was sold. I bought another latex dress (for some indoor fun) there and loved it.
Then I got marooned on an island yet again and just started looking at more fun lingerie things for when I got off the island. I ordered a crazy array of stuff from bra and panties and suspenders (garter) sets to dress up outfits - and started to experiment with some leather harnesses that were made to fit my curves.
I also hit up my now fav lingerie store in Brooklyn, Brooklyn Fox - again - and walked out with two bags this time and also revisited Purple Passion and got from them two dresses and a latex corset and skater skirt combo.
So, by the time the boudoir shoot with Andreea came about, I had an entire suitcase brimming full of lingerie to choose from - most of which had never been used! And I invested in some heels as I had nothing but flip flops and trainers (sneakers) for months: a spiky Louboutin pair of killer heels and a pair of gold Jimmy Choo sandals.
I’ve already added to the collection since the boudoir photography shoot with Andreea, despite not using half of it properly (as I’ve barely been home for very long)! But, I also needed to buy more lingerie as I’ve lost more weight and my boobs have got smaller again, so I need to restock - that’s my excuse anyway!
Though the leather outfits were not really my vibe (as you could tell during the shoot) - stockings and suspenders (garters) I love and feel super feminine and seductive. Corsets make me feel powerful and in control.
Latex feels incredible and is just hot hot hot!!!... although I’ve not actually worn it for anything other than pictures yet.
Favourite brands right now are Agent Provocateur, Honey Birdette and Journelle. I’m lusting after Bordelle pieces but they are super spenny (expensive) – I will have to save that treat for a very special occasion. It might be a birthday present to myself!
I don’t think I’m putting this love for lingerie back in a box any time soon!”
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